[{"bf_titre":"Love Gone Wrong Is Writing Itself","bf_description":"\u0022\u0022\u003Ccenter\u003E\u0022\u0022{{attach file=\u002214379584sergebielankowritinglovegonewrong1412615947.jpg\u0022 desc=\u0022\u0022 size=\u0022big\u0022 class=\u0022center\u0022 caption=\u0022image 14379584sergebielankowritinglovegonewrong1412615947.jpg (69.9kB)\u0022 nofullimagelink=\u00221\u0022}}\u0022\u0022\u003C\/center\u003E\u0022\u0022\r\n\r\nMy wife. My ex-wife. My estranged wife.\r\n\r\nMy strange-ass wife.\r\n\r\nI don\u2019t know what the hell to call her anymore.\r\n\r\nThere are no words that seem to fit the situation, really. And before we go much further, look, it\u2019s completely understandable if, as a reader at this juncture, you kind of wanna know what the situation is exactly. I get that. I really do.\r\n\r\nBut the hell with ya, because guess what? I can\u2019t tell you! You know why? Because (ta-dah!), there are no words that fit it, remember?\r\n\r\n\u0022\u0022\u003Ccenter\u003E\u0022\u0022== Sponsored Ads ==\r\nLooking For Divorced Singles? 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Even \u2018broke up\u2019 seems a peculiar twist of phrase to apply to my own life. What am I, 15? I\u2019m a 42-year-old man for God\u2019s sake. Can guys my age \u2018break up\u2019 with their freaking wives?\r\n\r\nI want to shoot straight with you here. That\u2019s my job, after all. I want to paint a heartfelt little picture of what is happening. I like to root around with a coffee spoon inside my bones, you know? I like to think of myself as this writer guy, this self-aware, unabashed, brave and frontiers-y broken-hearted wordsmith who all the world will read and fall in love with the moment they pick up on the fact that he is writing with such spectacular openness.\r\n\r\nAll of these things I\u2019ve been living through and feeling this past year are basically bigger and harder, with more ups and more downs, than a guy like me can possibly get any kind of a handle on.\r\nI\u2019m sitting down in front of my laptop and thinking about my wife, my marriage, the \u0022break up,\u0022 the kids, the feelings, the blues, the tiny speck of dim idiotic daylight flickering around out there at the end of the proverbial tunnel of darkness I\u2019ve been railroading through for way too long now. It feels like it ought to be getting at least a little bit more, I don\u2019t know, what\u2019s the word, natural for me at this point. I\u2019ve been writing a lot of stuff about it. About us. About what happened and why we grew apart. Or if we actually even did grow apart or if we both just kind of went insane?\r\n\r\nBut c\u2019mon. Let\u2019s get real here, too. People want to know what the fuzzizzle is happening with the characters they\u2019re reading about on the Internet.\r\n\r\nAm I getting a damn divorce already? Am I seeing anybody else? Is she? My ex, I mean? Or are we still just coasting, you know, just cooling our humming human jets out here in the 3 a.m. dewy fields of post traumatic what-ever-ya-call-it?\r\n\r\nThe words are not enough. The words fail me at every turn, both because I\u2019m an idiot and a lackluster scribe, but also, and perhaps more importantly, because all of these things I\u2019ve been living through and feeling this past year are basically bigger and harder, with more ups and more downs, than a guy like me can possibly get any kind of a handle on \u2014 writer-wise or otherwise.\r\n\r\nAnd, that\u2019s what I wanted to tell you, I guess. I wanted to tell you about that confusion, that maddening feeling of total and utter emotional chaos that came along and slammed into my ridiculous soul in a flash of momentary acceptance, back around March of this year, that precise feeling on a rainy Saturday afternoon when I finally put out a certain cigarette \u2014 a cigarette I had lit as a man still hoping that things would change just by me wanting them to change; a cigarette which I\u2019d stamped out with my boot on the concrete floor of the garage at the old house where we all lived as a family and ended its short burning life, smoldering there on the late winter floor, and I sped away in my car, heading to my mom\u2019s, fully aware that I had somehow crossed a line in the last minute or so.\r\n\r\nI left.\r\n\r\nI\u2019m gone.\r\n\r\nI don\u2019t know how well I\u2019m documenting any of this. I\u2019m at a loss sometimes to describe the hurt or the humor or the oddball crap that comes with two people who were once in love, now trying to come to terms with the fact that maybe the love has shape-shifted and morphed into something else entirely. Maybe we weren\u2019t meant to be. What\u2019s the goddamn word for that whole notion, huh? I sure as heck don\u2019t know. And I can\u2019t tell if that\u2019s because I\u2019m not being creative enough or writing well enough to get the job done or if it\u2019s this other thing that holds me up and keeps me from Karate Kid fly-pinching the exact words I need out of all this morning ether where I tend to hang out.\r\n\r\n\u0022\u0022\u003Ccenter\u003E\u0022\u0022**Maybe no one knows what the hell is happening to any pair of fairly freshly banged-up hearts because they haven\u2019t stumbled upon the right words yet.**\u0022\u0022\u003C\/center\u003E\u0022\u0022\r\nBecause in a lot of ways, I\u2019m an indomitable spirit, you bastards. Born into this world to chase my own tail until I finally chased something brighter and better down. And I thought I had done it, only to find that maybe she wasn\u2019t into it anymore.\r\n\r\nBut then again, maybe she is. You don\u2019t know. I certainly don\u2019t know. Probably no one knows. Probably not even her.\r\n\r\nWhen you think about it, at least when I do, it\u2019s like, hey, maybe no one knows what the hell is happening to any pair of fairly freshly banged-up hearts because they haven\u2019t stumbled upon the right words yet, huh?\r\n\r\nAnd then things start to make a wee bit of sense. Then we see that maybe that\u2019s why I\u2019m still here: hanging around, sniffing around, dabbling in these Dark Arts, in this writing, a dude waiting for the perfect words to get born, seemingly out of nothing and nowhere, words he can pluck right out of el skyo so he can finally, final-f-ing-ly, write the ending he has in mind.\r\n\r\nNow.\r\n\r\nCome to think of it, there ought to be some words that could get drunk and swing their arms around each other and sing themselves into this raucous, beautiful term for that whole twisted glimmer of promise I\u2019m always feeling, that\u2019s always there, under my skin and moving through my cells and my blood, drizzling down all over my own damn writing, a good thing even on the worst days.\r\n\r\nBut there isn\u2019t as far as I know.\r\n\r\nWell, not yet, at least.","bf_auteur":"Sam","bf_autreacteur":"","bf_contact":"","bf_site_internet":"http:\/\/google.com","bf_motclef":"","bf_partenaires":"","bf_autres":"","listeListeLicence":"","id_typeannonce":"33","id_fiche":"LoveGoneWrongIsWritingItself","date_creation_fiche":"2025-05-14 09:37:26","statut_fiche":"1","imagebf_image":"","checkboxListeAide":"","checkboxListeMotClef":"","date_maj_fiche":"2025-05-14 09:37:26","user":"185.107.162.250","owner":"","html_data":"data-bf_auteur=\u0022Sam\u0022 data-id_typeannonce=\u002233\u0022 data-id_fiche=\u0022LoveGoneWrongIsWritingItself\u0022 data-date_creation_fiche=\u00222025-05-14 09:37:26\u0022 data-statut_fiche=\u00221\u0022 data-date_maj_fiche=\u00222025-05-14 09:37:26\u0022 ","url":"https:\/\/ripostecreativebrest.xyz\/?LoveGoneWrongIsWritingItself","-is-external-":"0"}]